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Swiped from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mizzmarvel
Name a fandom and I'll tell you 3 pairings I love, 2 pairings I consider shipping, and 1 pairing I hate.
ETA: Please be specific for me. Don't say just comics or Marvel. Break it down to a show or a specific comic book. For example old school New Mutants is way better for me than just saying Marvel because, really, if you just say Marvel we'll be here all day. Plus this gives more people the opportunity to play.
Thanks!
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| So anyway: Persona 3 Portable. |
[11 Nov 2009|09:02pm] |
I was watching some P3Portable clips on youtube. It struck me as sort of cheating that they only use the sprites now in cut scenes, and not polygon figures, but whatever.
I watched the summer beach scene with the female protagonist. Akihiko and Junpei try to pick up Aigis by themselves, but she runs off and they wonder if there's something wrong with their game. Then it cuts to Aigis finding the female!main protagonist and embracing her. Then Akihiko and Junpei come in.
Akihiko: "Oh I see... she swings that way. No wonder."
I swear, he says this.
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[11 Nov 2009|11:32pm] |
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I love listening to music in alphabetical order...
Tori has a lot of great songs that start with C.
The only problem with alphabetical order is the word "The".. It messes everything up!
Especially with New Pornographers' songs... Like half of their songs start with "The".. AND why is it called "The Jessica Numbers" and not just "Jessica Numbers"... it's not like one makes more sense than the other hehe..
I have this slight problem with listening to music though.. I will start with the volume at a reasonable level and then turn it up a little when the a song gets to a good part.. but I don't turn it back down and then I adjust to the volume and then the next time a song gets to a good part, I turn it up again and so on..
Before long I'm like.. woah, I hope the neighbors like Tori.. (or whoever I'm listening to :p)
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| I just heard the Raveonettes in a Radioshack commercial.. |
[11 Nov 2009|09:50pm] |
I can't seem to remember what to put in a fridge when it's not full of other people's food..
I seem to remember having more in there than milk and juice and some chicken and lots of beer... hehe
The proportion of beer to food seems a bit disturbing.
I am not anti-mac, and I actually think their commercials are pretty funny..
But they seem to conviniently not mention some things.
They poke fun at Microsoft's various operating systems over the years, but their previous operating systems were pretty bad..
All of my MAC memories seem to end in the following:
Not to mention the fact that they say "PC VS MAC".. but all they do is compare two operating systems.. which is misleading..
PC is not Microsoft and it's not Windows... PC is just hardware.. and MAC is just a slightly different set of hardware.. Actually, nearly all of their parts are the same or very similar.. They even use the similar processors now.
Technically, MAC could make their OS compatible with a PC... Also technically someone else could make an OS that runs on a MAC and there already plenty of other operating systems for PCs aside from Windows.. Also, you can run a MAC OS on a PC through an emulator.. (Same for MAC I'm sure)...
The commercials really should be MAC vs Microsoft OR IMB vs Microsoft.. that would be much more honest.
Like I said.. I like the MAC commercials... but I feel like they're almost like the "TRUTH" commercials... they're all either scare tactics or misrepresentations that cheapen any valid points they might have.. And they DO have valid points.. but they go about it in a misleading way.
Okay, I'll stop ranting.. I'm sure no one is that interested anyways.
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[10 Nov 2009|06:36pm] |
Some stupid woman at work said I look like Mr Bean.
I let it get to me.. not in front of her.. I was really nice to her.. But she's an obnoxious douche.
I'm pretty hard on myself as it is.
I am also pretty open minded when it comes to stuff like that and I am straining to figure out how I look anything like Mr Bean. It's not a denial thing, it's more confusion than anything.. If I actually looked like him I don't think I'd care.. really...
Anyways..
I'm emberassed to write about it and emberassed about the fact that I let it bother me.
Today was a good day with the exception of that.
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| Crazy Dreams |
[10 Nov 2009|03:39am] |
Okay,
So I think I am having all the dreams that normal people have suddenly.
Like I actually dream about something and I am thinking, "hey, this is one of those things I read about in psychology!"...
My dreams have an actual variety of themes now.. It's fascinating to me.
I find them slightly less meaningful, but, to be honest, that's a little refreshing. It is much more relaxed.
Maybe that is the whole thing.. I just feel more relaxed in general.
I am still dealing with mostly the same exact issues, but suddenly I have one huge burden off my shoulders.
I feel like it is sort of a mistake for me to get comfortable with feeling this way because if I lost this job, there is nothing that says I'd get another one like it..
And it is the job that is making me feel relaxed. Making "adult" money and feeling quite secure in what I am doing and my ability to do it has had a big impact on how I feel.
I keep trying to remind myself that it could all be gone at any time.
But then I think to myself... I've never been fired or lost a job.. Even when Siemens was outsourcing, I was one of the few who still had a job.. I've always been such a survivor when it comes to work.. I've never even had difficulty finding a job. Although I have been paid terribly most of the time hehe..
Err.. Anyways.. I'm trying to convince myself that it's okay to relax and enjoy this.
I woke up about an hour ago.. I dreamed that my alarm went off.. and I feel too awake to go back to sleep.. so I guess I get to kill some time and then go to work early ;p
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| You know? I wrote a book. What's that? It's like the internet made out of a tree. |
[09 Nov 2009|06:42pm] |
Work is pretty fulfilling.
I came in today to a crisis.. I didn't even get to my desk and everyone was saying "Noah, fix it!"... And I fixed it, within 10 minutes and I was a hero for like 4 seconds :p My shift hadn't even started yet.
Then I spent the rest of the day doing semi cool things.
Then I got access to a new server and database and my manager is all excited because it means I can do all these new things.
Oh, and I MIGHT have found a love interest.. We have similar music interests.. which means, we're obviously meant for eachother. And she kept trying to get me to show her stuff all day long...
We'll see what happens.. I'm sure nothing will come of it but at least it's something to distract me from my last entry and remind me about other possibilities...
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| First impression. |
[09 Nov 2009|04:16am] |
I played the L4D 2 demo.
I admit, I like it. I think the new melee weapons are good because they give you more than just a tiny pistol to work with. Though since all of them one-hit kill a zombie, having so many does seem a little pointless... but who could resist using a guitar as a melee weapon?
The best additions have been the new weapons. Even the new versions of the old weapons are awesome. The new med. items... well you get an adrenaline shot you can use or a MAGIC defibrillator that brings a dead character back to life. You can use these instead of the health packs or pills. The new zombies are probably the low point, as I haven't seen too much of them. But overall, I enjoyed L4D 2. I'm still not sure if I will pre-order it, but I am sorely tempted.
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| No, I started it in a moment of passion and I'll end it the same way... |
[09 Nov 2009|12:13am] |
HD TV is disgusting :p I was much happier not seeing people's pores and moles and whiskers and etc hehe :)
I finally got everything unpacked and put away... and I did laundry and all that stuff..
I'm ready to have a normal weekend soon where I can actually enjoy my new place.
I had an impulse to get back together with my last girlfriend.. I gave it a lot of thought and did not come to a conclusion.
I am sure I'm only feeling that way because I'm lonely and because I feel such an urge to move onto the next part of my life.
I seem to be forgetting that the reasons I broke up with her was because I didn't see her as the person I would be doing that with.
I don't think that has changed... But my thoughts are clouded by my impulsive desire.. I can't even remember the reasons I felt that way.. But I know that I did and I know that nothing has changed.
I'm trying not to make a rash decision.
At the same time.. I was trying to figure out why any of the things that matter to me, matter...
People are stupid.. myself included. (almost rhymes hehe)
Eh.. maybe not all people are stupid like that.
I think rational, logical people might be the stupid ones.
People who plan for things and strive for them.. They get there and then what.
They end up in an empty house, having everything in their life except someone to share it with (not talking about myself, actually, although it kind of fits me too)..
I can do everything it takes to build my life up and make a nice comfortable spot, for that missing piece to fall in..
That's all I know how to do.. because I have control over everything but that.
The happy people are the ones who act on whims.. and they just go along and let life happen..
It's.. sort of like how I used to solve mazes as a kid.. I never started from the beginning.. I always started from the finish and worked my way backwards..
I do that with lots of things. I did it with this project at work.. In fact, I didn't even make headway on the project until I started working on the end and then I built up the infrastructure and functionality and foundation to fit it.
I don't think you can do that with life.
You can't just say.. okay, I can be a good father and provider now and then fill in the missing pieces..
Err.. I guess it's silly to say you "can't"... I guess, I mean to say that you can't just find those pieces to fill in a pre-fabricated life.
It's better to start from the beginning.. and build off of it..
The person I was talking about... has all the pieces, but none of them fit together..
It's interesting to see it from an outside perspective..
She doesn't see it from her perspective, but I can tell she's not satisfied even though it all went like it was supposed to.
Mathematically / logically, it is all there..
I think maybe the idea of it bothers me more than most because I think rigidly so often.
People tell you things as kids and they try to instill values into you.. They tell you to be responsible and be moral and make good decisions and plan and think before you do and etc.. They're all things that are important for everyone to learn and apply to their lives.. But if you're a robot and always make decisions based on these guidlines...
Everything in life is about balance.. even virtues..
It is confusing to me.
I know only from hindsight... sometimes the right decision is to be selfish or not respect someone or to do something that seems immoral..
I just don't get how that can be true..
But I know it is
I see people rewarded for it.
I'm not complaining about the world.. I know how pointless that is.. I am just trying to figure out how I can adjust to it.
Obviously, I'm not saying I always make the right choices or am perfect in any way.. But I can tell you that the urge to do what I understand to be "right" is overwhelming and if I have the capacity to understand a problem, or situation, I feel like it is my responsibility to fix it...
Hmm.. more rambling.
cryptic writing that vaguely matches my actual thoughts.
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| new D&D status report |
[08 Nov 2009|12:39am] |
Played my first session of D&D with a face-to-face group tonight.
Wow.
This is my first time I've ever rped face to face with other people. Before I had always rped exclusively online, which I considered superior because you can plot out each action and each word as you do/say it.
While that's true, rping face to face has a certain sort of appeal that I can't ignore. First of all I'll say basically 70-80% of it was combat and maybe 5% was spent 'talking' as our characters. But it worked for our campaign. (A Dark Sun campaign. Which I hear is basically a campaign setting you're lucky to survive for a few sessions.)
During the course of the session, the events we encountered included:
1. Escaping a burning slave 'desert ship' in which we'd been kept as slaves. (Think like the Star Wars sand crawlers the Jawas used, only pulled by huge armadillo monsters and carrying slaves as well as cargo and passengers.)
2. A fight for dominance of the group between my character and a giant cockroach-tribal warrior race PC. (Which I lost.)
3. Encountering a Grand Canyon-size valley of bones and dead remains, with a shrine to a dark god in the middle.
4. Finding a stockpile of wine, whereupon discovery, my character emptied all of his water skins to fill them with the wine. (He had the 'drunkard' flaw and actually takes huge combat penalties if he doesn't get enough alcohol each day. Keep in mind we'd spent the entire session walking through endless desert, and not having water is Very Bad.)
First time I've seen up-close a DM who could rattle off anything that was happening off the top of his head and was clearly not improvising anything. Then again, I guess when you're stuck in the desert and your options are "die horribly" or "don't," it requires less planning.
So, in summation: was lots of fun. I was not eaten. Will go back next week.
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| What's with all the cat lovers on LJ? |
[07 Nov 2009|09:26pm] |
I've *adopted* three outside cats that I've been feeding regularly for the past couple of months. I let Mason name them...Mrs. Biscuit, Spud, and I'm uncertain as to what he named the kitten because I call it IttyBittyShittyKitty due to its former constantly frazzled appearance. It's a really beautiful cat now, but the name has adhered.
Our inside cats stay upstairs 99% of the time by their choice because of their vile hatred of the dogs that primarily stay downstairs, but my seemingly GREAT idea of having basement cats was shot down by my wife.
They've been progressively getting closer and closer to me as I talk to them and feed them every day, and today, for the first time, Mrs. Biscuit and IttyBittyShittyKitty let me actually touch them while I gave them leftover meatballs.
IttyBittyShittyKitty
...and mom, Mrs. Biscuit, who looks to have suffered an eye injury.
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| Didn't we just make a fat stupid guy president? |
[07 Nov 2009|01:17pm] |
Okay.. so some of my meetings lately have been a bit ridiculous..
Like, they are using me as a selling point to get access to stuff..
They.. like bring me into the meeting to say something technical that convinces the people in IS to give us access to something..
Like, the last ones, I am probably not going to be involved in, but they just needed someone to "speak technical" and make a business case for what they're doing.
And it's actually pretty blatant on my manager's part.. He actually will say "we haven't been able to get this in the past, but maybe with Noah there, we'll be able to convince them"
And it's actually been working, that's the funny part.
I just go into these meetings and say something technical and act confident and they give us what we want.
This seems a very unlikely role for me :p
I wish I could be so confident in other aspects of life.
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